Just a simple guy flying somewhere away Who will follow me?
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Saturday, May 20, 2006
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God is multilingual - and so I read.
He speaks to us in different ways, He touches our hearts in different ways, He leads us each to different paths, paths which we walk and if we choose to follow, may one day chris cross one another and hopefully eventually with with Him.
As I grow up, I begin to discover the ways in which He chooses to speak to me.
I am an imaginative person - perhaps sometimes I like to think that I am artistic, even creative. I like to draw out meanings from events that may not have any meanings in them. We shall see.
The bible study group has been sharing with one another how we should repent and seek forgiveness in Christ. We encourage each other along this path, that it is common (so don't worry too much) for us to say "This is the last time (to this sin)" and yet a few days, even moments later, to return and think "Just one more time".
I have once taken this for granted. I have reached a point whereby I think, "So what (if I sin again)? Jesus will forgive me anyway." I was at that stage for quite a while. Thus sin took its hold and never let go; for myself, there was always "the last time". Then for a while I began to grow afraid. Frightened. Tremble. I grew scared, not because of my sins. Because I found myself already numbed. Numb to the core I give no second thoughts to sin. And one day (recently) I decided that it was too much for the Lord to bear. I can't even control myself, I can't even forgive myself. I don't even feel a thing.
I listen to my iPod and then I went to sleep.
I woke up to the sound of my iPod that dropped to the ground. "Oh man!"
I washed up and returned to tidy up my bed. I forgot that I had left the iPod on the bed and it dropped again. "ArGh!". What a horrible start to a horrible day. I can't forgive myself and now even my iPod wants to play tricks on me. Oh well, at least it was still working.
What a start - the outside at least was a weather cool, not too bad for a walk to school. I bend to fix my shoe laces. I had put the iPod in the jacket and as I bent it dropped onto the floor. "What the...!"
3 times in a row. I grew extremely frustrated. Angry. For what? For dropping my iPod 3 times in less than 10 minutes.
And suddenly I remembered. It trickled upon me. Peter had denied Jesus 3 times before.
I remembered something I heard - "Simon Peter in fact is not very much different from Judas - they both betrayed Jesus......" And again I recalled, "but you see, what's the difference between them? Well, For Judas, after he betrayed Jesus, he hanged himself and did not seek repentence. For Peter, he sought forgiveness and by grace was forgiven. He then went on to be a great man."
What was I to learn from this iPod? Something regarding forgiveness? I am forgiven not because of what I've done or what I'll do. I am forgiven because of that the Lord has so ever wished so.
The day started to look bright. I am able to stand firm again. How great the grace - that has saved a wretch like me. I bath myself in the Lord's forgiveness and love, I come to accept His gift.
The iPod still works. The wonder of iPod mini - I played my 2 favourite songs as I set off to school....
I Won't Be Lost - Fallen 3 times in a row waking up with vertigo but You were there to break my fall before I had to face it all Don't let me go Don't let me go
Don't you give up on me..
Shiver - I walk a mile with a smile I don't know I don't care where I am but I know it's alright Jump the tracks can't get back I don't know anyone around here but I'm safe this time
Cos with You I'm running running running somewhere I can't get to yes I have to have to have to change the rules
