Just a simple guy flying somewhere away Who will follow me?
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Monday, January 23, 2006
So Many Things
Finally! Got down to writing this 'long awaited' post.. Sorry guys it's been one h*ll of a ride this past few weeks. Well here's a brief summary of the few major events:
1) Driving Yes indeed I've finally finally resumed my driving lessons after 3 whole months of procrastinating. At first I thought that I stopped the lessons because I wanted to concentrate on tuition for my students since their exams were nearing (referring to Nov '05 of course). Then I realise that I simply hate driving. Well, at least, driving with my driving instructor beside me. Though name I'm so tempted to publish so that all my friends will be spared of the torture from him should you(yes you are my friend) be so lucky to see his advert on Classifieds and fall trap to his sweet talk on the first lesson. I tell you, and I shall never type such an informal blog post again, he's the worst worst worst teacher I've ever had. Just my luck to meet him. I feel as though my $850 has gone down the drain. There are so many things I cannot tolerate with him inside the car. On turns, he'd cut me and reach over for the steering wheel. Number of times? 10 on average per lesson. It's soooo irritating!! Imagine yourself turning and this hairy pair of hands just cut across (sometimes hurting you in the process, yes I mean physical pain!! He's so rough!) and interfere. Irritating, frustrating, nerve wrecking! And then that's not the worse, the things he talk about are plain ridiculous, irrational, and yes but of course IRRITATING. When I'm ever trying so hard to control that half clutch, he's asking me how to spell 'apologise', 'realised', 'friends' and I'm like 'A, P, O, L, O...' and thinking what the. The next thing I know? What do you think of this sentence - ' I apologise to cheat on your feelings...', 'It was not love just s*x', 'I hope we can still friends'. Now I won't elaborate to say how disgusting he is, you just put yourself in the driver's seat next to him. And when I manage to stall the car because I couldn't concentrate on that half clutch? "Anything lor, you pay the money already. I don't care if you pass or fail anyway you pay already..." Just my luck, just my luck.. And when I think about how nasty I am for having these bad thoughts about him and I try to practice 'love', do I truly appreciate the greatness of our dear Lord Jesus.
2) UNSW Orientation/Predeparture brief My my I've finally settled down to meeting my mates from UNSW Med. A total figure of 8 Singaporeans, out of this a disappointing 7 guys! 7! 7/8! Sian. Where am I going to find my future soul mate like this? How am I to answer "Pak toh boa?", "Girlfriend leh?". It's a strange thing I always get friends coming up to me asking me about their relationship problems like I'm some love guru. Not that I don't like it. In fact, I so enjoy this and I think it's a privilege when my friends tell me about the problems they encounter and what more, I get to be the love guru). And then when they turn around and ask me if I've got a girlfriend? "No..." Ex-girlfriend? "No..." What the!? Bo ko leng... Are you gay? ".....NO" (Ok I add in the are you gay part). Well, sorry to disappoint ZC out there. Haha. J/J. I say! Hullo! I was 6 years in an all boys school, 4 years in an all boys school, 2 years in a all boys/guys army. It makes one shy. Oh well, never mind. I still look afar at Jessica Simpson (oh and I think Kate Beckinsale in Serendipity was mind blowing) Never mind.. Seeing that this sub heading is with regards to the Pre departure brief, I've already steered off course, far too much (no wonder my driving instrouctor, no love just s*x - I still think about it and I'm like What the h*ll do you do when you're not turning people's wheels?) Never mind. Pre-departure. Oh yes, should I mention here that I'm no longer staying on campus. I'm sharing an apartment with one of my friend (whom I know from BMT). I think about the prospects and I'm super duper excited about it!! It means living on your own! New furniture, I decorate my own room, cook myself, do the laundry, clean the place. My my... My heart leaps for joy and thank God for a chance like this! Besides this, the predeparture brief was mainly about stuff I've already know from reading from the net. Things like, Oh you know things are really expensive try to bring as much as you can, even the pends cost double the price and the $2 a packet food you get in Singapore? Forget about it, it's $10 a meal at least. Well, food for me is basically not a problem. I've more or less decided that I'd make my own sandwiches and cook at night. Yea.. a healthy lifestyle!! Haha.. and if I got the time I'll pop by the beach and gym. Tan, sauna, steam bath, threadmill, weights. Hmmm... Cover model doctor wanna be? We shall see, we shall see... If I got the discipline. Haha.
3) Spring cleaning Besides a different approach to area cleaning this year, pretty much everything is the same. Different approach in terms of 1)my attitude and 2)style. I singalong while cleaning. I shout and laugh while I wipe. My sorta last festive season before I fly. And I'm beginning to keep my stuff in boxes so they won't collect dust while I'm away. It's interesting when one does that. I began to read through the cards and letters and messages I've received over the years - Christmas, Brithdays, Encouragements. I'm so thankful for the people who are (/were) in my life. I read some of these and I long to speak to the people again. It's such heartwarming moments even when one is alone. It's like closing a part of the memory down. And part of closing down memories always mean thinking about fond memories.
4) 21st, 21st, 21st...21st? Alright... Happy 21 Janise Reynard Elvin Jianhong (In accordance to date of parties). So you guys are officially one year older than me. Muahahaha. Everyone's party has been different but still a time of gathering and catching up. Well...almost. Hey! You all must add lucky draws lah... So I get a chance to win something. Some common traits amongst the parties... Dai dee and Bridge. Other than food and drinks and giving presents. Yea... Dai dee and bridge. I love dai dee and bridge! Oh! Chocolate cake!! I love chocolate cakes! From Creamy chocolaty wafer chocolate cake to blueberry extremely small not enough for 50 persons chocolate cake to extremely creamy chocolate cake. I love choolate cakes! Hehe... Stand outs? Janise - yea man the invitation cards rocks! Though it's staining the envelope. And can I say that your chocolate cake is da best! creamy chocolate with wafer. and with the chocolate bits. and 25% extra almond ( thanks zichun for SHARING). Where's the mango juice?! Reynard - such a good host you are, asking us to stay later and saying bye bye when we couldn't wait longer. I suppose one thing we did that night? Dai dee and bridge. Oh yea! Your mum tiramisu is nice nice nice! Remember to pass me the recipe hor so I can make myself and impress my friends in Aust. Haha. It's such nostalgia going to your house again. Elvin - fantastic food! Hehe. Really, Stamford is good. And the stupid cat. Come and scratch me. Whatever happened to the haunted Changi hospital trail? Could've been exciting. Hehe. We thought it was the haunted looking building Qing drove us to. Well, Jianhong's one is coming up soon. And what, we have to do chsh chsh chsh doo doo doo. But seeing that it's actually on New Year's week itself and a Sat, there may be some problems since I usually spend this time with family and relatives. Shall see about it. Seeing how everyone's holding their parties and turning 21 has led me to think about my own. June - probable still in Aust then. Will I be spending it alone then? Winter time. Maybe I'll buy a chocolate cake and head for the mountains where there's snow. How cool, how nice. If I can appeal to something, pur lez friends and yes, cousins! Remember my birthday not this year. I'm sorry for being so thick skin. I don't want to spend it like any other day! It's 21st! I want presents! Haha.. Well at first I was thinking if not a birthday party maybe a farewell party? But then again, I don't want to bring this request up and make my parents feel inclined to have one. I think I've already and am going to already spend a lot a lot...so... sorry friends and cousins. But pur lez I beg you, I beseech you to meet me at the airport. If it's not for you, it's a favour for me. I want to see you before I leave!! And yes Derrick you can send me off spiritually while in India. And Stephen? Korat. Oh by the way, below's the updated flight schedule (for Zichun's sake. I'm beginning to count the number of times Zichun appears in this post even though he's irrelevant).
Flight: SQ 231 Departure Time: 0020 (20th Feb) Arrival Time (Sydney): 1055 (20th Feb) Check in/ Meet the friends say goodbye session: ~ 2100/2200 (19th Feb)
5) Ordering A Private World Right right, amidst all these, I finished reading this book "Ordering A Private World" and it's beginning to have an impact. First off, I'm waking up early everyday, like when I'm on leave. I'm partly amazed too. Given my past habits, I'd be sleeping around 2 in the morning and then wake 11 the next day. Nowadays I find this unacceptable and also unable to stay awake so 'early' in the morning. I gotta hit the sack by 10/11 pm. And it feels really refreshing and cool when I awake the next day at 6! I mean, how nice a feeling when you wake and realise you don't have to go work but have the whole day to yourself. Partly am cultivating this habit in preparation to med school life down under. It may not be as easy to keep to, sleeping at 10!? But I'll try to keep it up. Waking up early in the morning also means I get to spend time with God and set a clear objective for the day. Well, besides this sleeping and waking, there's another thing that seems to have changed. I've stopped talking to people. Ok, this does not sound right. I still talk. But addressing this issue to 2 of my friends in particular, it's not that I've closed myself in and decide that I'd rely on my own. Believe me I'm not so strong. But I'm trusting things into the Lord's hands. I wouldn't think of elaborating a private world on a public blog but that's the gist. If ever we get to talk then I'll explain. In the meanwhile, believe me, this is one of the most exciting period of my life, hopefully a prelude to what will be when I'm there.
As conclusion, I would like to share something amazing that happened. It's not a miracle I see with my eyes but rather one that I feel with my heart. Remembering how I was so disillusioned about going to UNSW, it's as if I've been set free from this trap. I no longer worry about the drinking and partying. I no longer worry about it. I find peace and joy in this decision that I've made, like the many ones that I still make and will make. Saying all these does not give me any credit but instead I'd like to thank you guys for sharing part of the journey with me and ultimately, God who's in control. He's the one who by His grace and mercy, makes everything worthwhile and not life as something living for the moment or for tomorrow.
